Friedrich Nietzsche Beyond Good and Evil

§ An inscrutable thinker

To begin with, and despite the title of the section under which this article is posted, this is not a review, and perhaps not even a commentary on this great work, but rather a series of thoughts around impressions of it held by several groups, in contrast to what may be a more accurate consideration of the man in question and his work. It seems that all that is needed to claim Nietzsche’s ideas as support for an ideological stance is to have somewhat of a thick skin or simply be alright with blunt criticism of anything one disagrees with. The interesting thing about Nietzsche is that he is at once glorified and vilified by people with widely differing ideologies across the full spectrum, with the exception of those explicitly following a Judeo-Christian kind defense of the weak, the mediocre and anything “human, all too human”.

Atheists claim him as one of their own, as they superficially read his words and take them to mean that Nietzsche was the highest kind of independent mind there was. In truth, Nietzsche can be seen criticizing both the dogmatic religious and the modern hubris of the modern atheist, even if he does not name each specifically and in quite such words. The attention of his sledge hammer is directed most of all to the flowering atheism and scientism that was taking Europe by storm at the time of his writing Beyond Good and Evil, and which atheism (or at least crypto-atheism disguised as a kind of philosophical pantheism) and scientism has since become the norm among the educated, and especially among the liberal-minded. Nietzsche dispenses as much injury upon the religious as upon the anti-religious. What he argued for was not the absence of a morality or a tradition, but the distinction between qualities of it, and their origin.

There is MASTER-MORALITY and SLAVE-MORALITY,—I would at once add, however, that in all higher and mixed civilizations, there are also attempts at the reconciliation of the two moralities, but one finds still oftener the confusion and mutual misunderstanding of them, indeed sometimes their close juxtaposition—even in the same man, within one soul.

Aristocrats claim him, even though he devotes large portions of his thought to demolishing any claims of nobility that modern aristocrats might still hold on to. The nobility to which Nietzsche so often alludes is one that is proven through spirit and resulting action thereof: that is, the Will; the Will to Life and Power (alluded to here in the sense that Gwendolyn Taunton has exposed in the past1). His is a nobility that self-creates through this Will, and whose decisions are based upon results and high aims with a vision of centuries, and which does not rest upon vainglorious pride, but rather the question of how to improve. This nobility, however, does reserve a right to determine notions of what should be or what should not be, and there lies the difference between literal nobility, of which Nietzsche speaks, and the allegorical nobility which the humanist modern man would like to believe in.

Purists, and National Socialist types would cringe if they would have actually studied Nietzsche. For, while he deals a significant amount of damage to the Jew, enough to actually garner enough merit to be awarded the title of “anti-semite” he also gives them credit where it is deserved in a manner not unlike Hitler in Mein Kampf, actually, though with different aims and perhaps coming to different practical conclusions. The nobility of action, which was that of a created spirit, could perhaps be better aligned with Julius Evola’s nobility of the spirit, which was not independent of blood but rather worked through and above it in a supra-eugenic manner.

It stands to reason that the more powerful and strongly marked types of new Germanism could enter into relation with the Jews with the least hesitation, for instance, the nobleman officer from the Prussian border: it would be interesting in many ways to see whether the genius for money and patience (and especially some intellect and intellectuality — sadly lacking in the place referred to) could not in addition be annexed and trained to the hereditary art of commanding and obeying — for both of which the country in question has now a classic reputation.

Anarchists claim him, even though he clearly believes only an incredibly small percentage of the population can be truly free, as a result of innate abilities that not all possess and the opportunities to develop them. Rather than push towards the idea of a world where every individual is completely independent, a natural hierarchy is deemed by Nietzsche as inevitable, whatever social constructs humans might like to dream on about. The roots for these lie deep in our nature and in Nature, and attempting to change them is usually a path towards self-annihilation, and an overall sentiment that is anathema to Life itself.

“We truthful ones”—the nobility in ancient Greece called themselves. It is obvious that everywhere the designations of moral value were at first applied to MEN; and were only derivatively and at a later period applied to ACTIONS.

It is then also common to hear people who in their youth upheld Nietzsche as a pillar of their own ideology, only to later reject what they thought his philosophy consisted of, on the basis of them changing the emphasis and focus of their own narrow-minded understanding. The former anti-religious communist becomes a progressive advocate of combinatorics chaos theory and real politik in an attempt to out-intellectualize the philosopher, while of course, distancing himself from the word ‘intellectual’, even as he poses as one. The former modern aristocrat finds the truth about the depth of corrupt modernity and so turns against the philosopher as if he were part of this, and as if tradition as the answer were wholly incompatible with the ideas of Nietzsche. Each of them have only moved from one misapprehension into another, without ever actually having captured the essence of Nietzsche’s thought.

What is he really about, then? Nietzsche was, in fact, terribly honest and direct, even though people seem to insist upon reading him in the most cryptic of ways, perhaps in an attempt to validate themselves and avoid what he was actually urging humanity towards. In truth, it is quite difficult to finish creating a personal picture of Nietzsche, because one has to read his particular takes on so many things before one can even begin to glimpse what his stated proposal of the Übermensch actually entails. The statement “beyond good and evil” entails precisely what it seems to state, rather than an allegorical turn of phrase, a state in which the superior individual does not concern itself with dichotomies and labels, and rather finds the reality of self-determined action beyond them. Since the great majority of humanity functions through and lives by these symbols, faiths and abstractions, the immediate reality, and more importantly, the patterns and not the appearances that constitute this reality2, to which Nietzsche constantly refers eludes them every time as they refuse to see what is in front of them in favor of their own construct thereof.


1 “To Nietzsche, the figure of Dionysus is the supreme affirmation of life, the instinct and the Will to Power, with the Will to Power being an expression of the Will to Life and Truth at its highest exaltation.” —Gwendolyn Taunton, ‘The Black Sun’, Primordial Traditions, Vol I.

2 A notion elegantly and concisely explained by Brett Stevens in his book Nihilism, as a condensation of Nietzsche, Spinoza and Plato, perhaps even through the digestion of others.

Amongst the Ruins —A review of Nihilism

brett_stevens_-_nihilism_a_philosophy_based_in_nothingness_and_eternity-600x900Nihilism: A philosophy based on nothingness and eternity, Brett Stevens’ new book, opens the door to the author’s mind by giving us a picture of childhood in suburban America in a well-to-do, middle-class family. This is the typical family that would be considered privileged and fortunate by all standards of modern society. Despite this, signs of internal turmoil, dissatisfaction and desperation are evident all over the place under the thin veneer of smiles and good intentions.

Brett Stevens attempts, in Nihilism, to go to the root of causes from the human vantage point through a meta-philosophical1 exploration of the factors. Through the author’s tutelage, it becomes obvious that good intentions mean nothing when negative results come about, and that the universal occurrence of perfectly shaped smiles usually betrays emptiness and a lack of clear goals. In this book, we find a rejection of all political and ideological systems in exchange for a return to a search for the wisdom and discernment of the ancients.

Underlying this is the idea that essence and holistic results are more important than temporal form and localised effects, the first of which is but a vehicle while the second has little actual consequence on its own.

§ The situation

One of the greatest paradoxes of the society in which we live in is its supposed avowal of diversity in both thought and way of living. In truth, what we find is far removed from freedom and is rather a passively enforced and very effective system whereby the average citizen is lead to act as a government informant and an agent of one central liberal and “progressive” pseudo culture2. It leads to authentically different ideas (rather than those that appear as new but are little more of the same in a different presentation) being shun outright once they are detected as non-compliant with the central system’s requirements.

It is assumed that because, in contrast to traditional cultures, modern civilization accepts variations in sexual tendencies, race mixing and entertainment, it is somehow more accepting and open-minded. In truth, it is as close-minded as traditional cultures, while the only difference is what it allows and what it does not. What is also overlooked is that we are, in fact, imposing a different order over those who are traditionally minded. How are we to differentiate among them? Isn’t modern civilization, because better informed as a result of technological and scientific advancement, in a better position to judge the way things should be done?

§ A proposition

Brett Stevens advocates nihilism as a gateway to realism and idealism which, hand in hand and dealt with higher intellect, take the mentality of the individual towards transcendentalism. In a summarised manner, it is an extreme acknowledgement of what is without trying to impose human illusion over the tangible and measurable universe, only to then head towards the highest ideals that we can think of in an ever-ascending path. The beneficent effect of this outlook is twofold: first, it bypasses any impulse towards compromise and mediocrity, and second, it forces us to consider the permanent first of all, and the temporal in view of it.

Furthermore, to achieve such a vision, humans are required to put aside their egos, and so any illusions of socially-imposed egalitarianism in favour of a holistic vision of what is good as per ultimate consequences. Unfortunately, some divide this into two black-and-white categories in the common means versus ends dilemma, which is only so for those afflicted with narrow minds and short sightedness. Each question should be evaluated in its own context, not dealt with in prescribed absolutes such as “this is bad/good”, and rather as “what will the effect of this course of action be in this condition?”.

Realistic values, then, are created through the consensus that follows addressing each situation with respect to visionary criteria that does not sacrifice the whole to avoid having to take a hard decision. Values also vary between kinds of people and markedly so between people from different cultures and races. True freedom comes not from an inclusive government that forces its own overarching values over distinct groups that must accommodate to it, but from independent groups that are free to choose their own values within their own terms of existence.

Modern, democratic-liberal imposition is tyranny for those who do not agree with it. The typical, childish response by college-like types accustomed to having their ideas protected so long as they pander to the majority (seeing as democracy is a popularity contest, not a reaching towards actual solutions), is that anyone who does not agree is free to go live far off on a mountain. Even if we were willing to do so and were successful in building outlying posts of a new/different culture, we know that if these became influential and highly successful there are no out-of-bounds regions for modern, globalised governments.

The peace-loving modern West would only consider such communities as breeding centres for outlaws and/or extremists deserving to be imprisoned, tortured and “re-educated”. Just ask any country in the last 120 years that has been successful in escaping the clutches of international banking and corporatism: they have all been summarily “brought to justice for their crimes against humanity” sooner or later. Thus, change will have to be slow and encouraged from within to survive the collapse of the diseased body of a civilisation that has been crumbling for millennia (technological advancements notwithstanding).

§ For those who seek, not for those who wait

These propositions, however, are not aimed at trying to convince anyone by way of sentimental appeals, but rather a presentation of logical and common sense statements that can be taken by someone willing to go through them rationally and make up his or her own mind. The implication that many of subpar intelligence, lacking mental honesty or irreparable egotism will almost surely reject the ideas in this book from the very start without understanding them is a tacit given. This does not mean that there is an attitude of requesting complete compliance, but that the contents require an honesty and wilful consideration that escapes the vast majority of people in a capricious and self-deceiving world afflicted by globalised modernity.

1 Meta-philosophical in the sense that it is not an attempt at creating a full philosophical system, but to use philosophical references to indicate the contours and boundaries of a precise idea that is to serve as starting point for later stages.

2 The compendium of modern secular “values” which reflect centuries of Judeo-Christian indoctrination could be called a pseudo culture instead of an authentic one by virtue of the fact that they are super-imposed on people rather than born naturally from an organic consensus arising through generations of individuals interacting with those within their actual community.

Nihilistic Learning


§ Nihilism

It is important that we start out distinguishing nihilism from what this term commonly refers to in popular lingo, which is fatalism. Fatalism is an outright negative posture, and is conducive to extreme individualism by assuming the worst out of situations. This is not nihilism. Nihilism is the belief that nothing in the universe has inherent meaning or value. Note that ‘no inherent meaning or value’ is not the same as ‘no possible meaning or value’.

The term nihilism is used here in the way Brett Stevens explains it in his book, Nihilism: A Philosophy Based in Nothing and Eternity. There is no doubt that the book will be criticised as much as Brett Steven’s work in the past has been criticised; namely, by decrying a certain lack of academic formality on the one hand and a complete refusal to conform to the ‘common sense’ notions of the average well-to-do citizen of the modern world.

The aforementioned lack of academic formality refers to a lack of philosophic backbone; perhaps even a lack of total consistency. For instance, the book at once makes a call towards an ideal of ‘beauty’, while at the same time naming ‘pragmatism’ as the key. So, which one is it? It seems that there is a contradiction at the most basic of levels here. If the premises are contradictory, what is this supposed to lead to?

To answer the first of these doubts it should be pointed out that philosophical inquiry, although useful in exploring ideas and systems made up of them, exists wholly within the mind and are not reality. However, according to Brett Stevens, reality must be perceived or understood as having an underlying logic. But like the ancients and their esoteric holistic fusion of science, philosophy and religion, and unlike most post-Descartes and Aristotelian philosophy, it recognises that reality is inefable.

This recognition may explain why so many different coherent explanations have cropped up in modern philosophy, without one or another possessing an objective superiority. This ineffability of reality leads to the esoteric method and the recognition of occult properties: those which we may never perceive directly; not even through scientific instruments, for physical science can only study effects. The apparent incoherence of esotericism, including the way Brett Stevens approaches nihilism, can only be resolved through direct experience in what is termed as a ‘coincidence of opposites’.

“Like Zen Buddhism, it is a form of mental clearing and sharpening of focus more than a set of beliefs in and of itself; this is why nihilism is a belief in nothing, being both a belief in nothing (no inherent belie outside of reality) and a belief in nothingness (applying nothingness to useless thoughts, in an eternal cycle that like our own thinking, balances a consumptive emptiness against a progressive growth and proliferation of idea). It is a freedom, in a way that ‘freedom’ cannot be applied in a modern society, from the views that others (specifically, the Crowd) apply out of fear, and a desire to use this freedom to create a new and more honest human who can view life as it is and still produce from it heroic ideals.”

—Brett Stevens, Nihilism: A Philosophy Based in Nothingness and Eternity, p. 124

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§ Unchained Learning

I chose to start by aligning the prerequisite basic concept from that of nihilism as explained by Brett Stevens, not because it is his creation but because he explains it so clearly and concisely. More than a few individuals have been able to find this voluntary emptying through their lives only to then recreate meaning from within. From the ashes one may crawl out of a barren gorge, aided by synchronistic elements or individuals finally come to a portal.

By destroying all illusion of human-given value one comes to a direct and plain experiencing of reality. Thereby the plain, consistent workings of an immanent reality become apparent, or the emanations and manifestations thereof. This is the Godhead of the semi-esoteric Western Christian, which in the Tree of Life consists of the Supernal Triangle containing the higher Trinity (the “Father”, for all intents and purposes) that defines the abstract ‘mechanics’, relations and polarities of reality at every level.

Be that as it may, such conceptualisations may serve a further conscious study, but an attentive and self-directed mind will perceive and attain these notions unaided by theoretical systems, mystical or otherwise. The individual may thus be lead, in his search for value, to consciously selected methods and systems by the way they address reality itself rather than by external imposition. This attainment of power is exciting and decisive in the future of the individual.

Most college-educated people nowadays think they have that liberty, but never having engaged in the actual mental and spiritual self-immolation that this requires, only fool themselves. Until you have not burned your faith (not only of the religious type, but also the secular, such as humanism) to the ground so that nothing is left of it, you will never know how much of it is just illusion. The assessment of if it actually corresponds to reality can only become apparent as one rediscovers its value rationally, logically and honestly.

Once a complete liberation from abstractions is achieved, one can start to try and perceive the world as it is, or more precisely, as we are equiped to. The fact of the matter is that although the mathematics and the science of it all allows us to gain a quantitative knowledge of very specific aspects of reality, they can tell us very little of the whole. But we, as total beings, exist not for isolated influences, but as a result of and one more element in the organic mesh that is the universe.

“A form lay on the ground
So full of pain that the flowers around her
A dark soul lay on the ground
So cold that all water turned into ice
A shadow then fell over the forest
As the form’s soul wilted
For the soul was a shadow
A shadow of the forces of evil.”

—’The Death of Jesus’, by V. Vikernes

'Op under Fjeld et toner en Lur', by Theodor Kittelsen

‘Op under Fjeld et toner en Lur’, by Theodor Kittelsen

§ Judgement

With an anchor and reference point secured in the immanence of reality itself, one may take theories and systems for what they really are: attempts at understanding reality with different degrees of validity and varying relationships to the reality they describe. In this day, for one, we have forgotten to doubt science, and all becomes positivism; even worse, given the illusion that data is infallible, interpretations of data by authorities are taken as plausible so long as they do not go against the humanist grain. Thus everything is interpreted in favor of certain secular beliefs while anything unsavoury is brushed under the carpet or discarded off hand.

The free and inquisitive mind, however, will not only reject such baseless bias, but will also venture forth and try to immerse itself in particular ways of thinking that allow it to develop further. This can only occur in a constructive manner if the individual is possessed of a certain judgement that arises from an intuitive connection between self-knowing and a strong grasp on logic. Furthermore, as with anything else that requires initiative, without developing will, nothing can be achieved. One must first have the ability to assess one’s being not only for strengths and weaknesses, but also for inherent tendencies that allow for a prudent and natural path selection; also, in order that this process does not degenerate into self-indulgence, one must be able to evaluate and sense the probability a certain path  has of bringing to fruition personal goals.

It is no wonder that those who reach this point turn either to stoicism or esotericism of one kind or another. These are selected paths that one usually chooses depending on temperament and goal. The two usually intermix at one point or another, and the stoic man usually harbors an idealist mystic, while the esoteric-minded hides a frugal and pragmatic realist. But it must be remembered that to call or consider oneself a stoic or esotericist is no proof that one actually follows and embodies what those paths can give. Words and names help us direct and organise, but actions and being in actuality (rather than in intention or self-deception) are the only things that are real.

What one can learn from such a state, is that one can try and learn from any source, book, author, culture, political system, et cetera; without rejecting it based on belief and rather learning to give each a clean slate in the manner of a virtual machine environment within an already working operating system. The self-righteous humanist, whether religious, agnostic or atheist, believes himself to be in this position, and so the fallacy of the superiority of human beings and the sanctity of every life is upheld as a dogma beyond contestation because the sheep believes that the bases for its delusion have been proven beyond doubt. Such is the nature of every belief, whether religious, pseudo-scientific or historical. The scientific mind understands otherwise.

The strong and honest mind will also veer towards ultimate consequences and holistic evaluations. What does it matter if we recycle everything today if this does not stop the destruction of natural habitats? What does it matter if each human life is saved if we are on a death march towards self-annihilation by overpopulation? What does it matter if religions make people feel happy and distracted if they act like materialist in a consumerist culture and are no different from their atheist counterparts when the total result of their actions are measured? What does it matter if you are not fooled by religion but you simply exchange a set of beliefs in the supernatural for a different set of dogmas? What does it matter if you had good intentions and worked on yourself if you allowed the decadence around you to grow and take a hold? The answer is: nothing.

It only matters to those who want to care and only those who take action will get a chance (not the assurance) of making a difference. What matters in real terms are ultimate consequences; the bringing of what is willed to actual manifestation. We either achieve this goal or we do not. Life and reality advance through states of what is, and not what could be. Potential is a possibility, but it needs energy and will to become manifest.

“Human behavior flows from three main sources: desire, emotion, and knowledge. ”
― Plato


§ Freedom

What do people actually know about freedom? Are they sure that what they want is freedom? True and complete freedom without boundaries implies complete chaos. Only in chaos is every decision possible. Actual chaos is the non-existence of any organisation, thus the nullification of any meaning, communication or being itself. In short, total freedom is total oblivion, which in turn implies infinite uniformity through complete unpredictability at each state. Those who want to strike a balance between that and what must be paid have to decide where and how they wish that bit of freedom they can have to be placed.

Modern society loves to go on and on about what they like to call ‘freedom’. What they are actually referring to is to having freedom to build an illusory world around them and in their heads through tighter and tighter constraints enforced by an increasingly totalitarian system.  It is a kind of freedom to live in a world of beliefs where action is neutralised and all that matters is appearance —the correct appearance at that. This appearance is often called ‘intention’. Results seem to matter very little in this world of appearances, and while people work hard at pretending to be doing something worthwhile, no one else is supposed to be able to complain. Pointing out the problem is looked down upon and an admonishment usually comes in the form of a request for the person who complains to go do something about the supposed problem so long as he or she does not bother or affect anyone else.

The highest freedom available to human beings is that of mind. In fact, this is possibly the only freedom possible to him, for the constant laws hold his physicality in a constriction through time. Thus, while horizontal movement is fixed, it is in vertical exploration that we may find that parallelism that Brett Stevens talks about. In accessing these higher layers and evaluating through them, the single existence at the grossest level can be directed for the benefit of that higher plane. Thus, freedom to think means nothing without freedom to act —no matter what these actions are, for in restraining the possible actions, you restrain the effective freedom of thought.

The walls that separate mental control within the illusory bubble of safe spaces, from actual freedom of thought outside in the world of harsh consequences, are more readily broken down by exploring heresies  from within to the point of embracing them as an experiment. By experiment we do not mean that they are not taken seriously or taken to heart, but that we always recognise that form and essence are not the same and that we may use forms as tools to achieve transformation and gain new insights. In a religious society, atheism is one of the strongest forms of heresy. For a secular society, something else that strikes at the very heart of its ideological bases will constitute this heresy; for instance, extreme Jihadism and National Socialism.

Thus, functional freedom is not a rejection of our nature or origin; it does not consist in ignoring or dulling our emotions and sensations. It is in the clear separation of raw, a-moral reality and human constructs that we may have the first key that allows us to traverse the seas of possibilities unbounded. This is not to be lost, but to be in control. Read the heresies of your time and place. Embrace the mentality of whom you are told is The Enemy, to then realise who your enemy actually is. Likewise, reject or demolish the foundational myths and other stories that form the pillars of the “truth” as presented to you by others. We do not all need to conclude the same thing, for part of this freedom lies in recognising that each person has a unique path and a singular potential. Those who will not do this are deciding to accept their chains in illusion; those who simply cannot were born to serve and obey.

“Man is born violent but is kept in check by the people around him. If he nevertheless manages to throw off his fetters, he can count on applause, for everyone recognizes himself in him. Deeply ingrained, nay, buried dreams come true. The unlimited radiates its magic even upon crime, which, not coincidentally, is the main source of entertainment in Eumeswil. I, as an anarch, not uninterested but disinterested, can understand that. Freedom has a wide range and more facets than a diamond.”
― Ernst Jünger, Eumeswil

A Child’s Solitary Pact


§ The Event

Around the age of six, most probably even before that, a child may become aware of the huge rift that separates their pure understanding from the complex and often twisted way of seeing things of the adults. As children who have just come into our basic rational and logical faculties, some of us quickly realize the degree of contradiction and nonsense that seems to drive the adult world. I cannot be sure what percentage of the population suffers this subtle awakening right after leaving the toddler stage, but if they do, few make it to their teenage years —not to mention their young adult age— without having complied with the system to a certain degree and given up on their inner compasses.

What has prompted this memory in me is Brett Stevens‘ illustrative story in the earliest section of his new book, Nihilism: A Philosophy Based In Nothingness And Eternity. Although set in a very different context (for I was not a suburban, Generation X kid in “America”), the general feeling and experience remains the same, with the exception that unlike the kid in the story, I outwardly displayed the necessary behavior patterns that would mean the authorities leaving me alone. Like him, I told myself that I would not forget myself, that I would not forget that children know and understand much more than the condescending and nonsensical adults knew.

“In that clearing, which would soon be bulldozed flat to make room for more houses, he made a pact with himself: he would see things as they were here, always, no matter what the adults said. But he feared the day he would become an adult, too, and worried that the hidden thing inside people would take him, too.”

—Brett Stevens, Nihilism, Introduction, page 131.

Brett Stevens also makes a point of describing that his impression of the adults’ motivations and guiding emotion is fear. In world dictated by fear of the natural, raised by a fear-driven family and society, there seems as if there is little else to hold on to but nihilism. As paradoxical as that may sound, the simple answer is that nihilism is in accordance with reality to its furthest consequences, materialism and duality on the other hand and as Brett Steven explains, are self-serving denials of it.

“Nihilism grows from a conceptual seed: neither universal truth nor subjectivity exists. Both are human constructions designed to remove fear of unknowns in our world. All we have is reality and our ability to adapt to it.”

—Brett Stevens, Nihilism, ‘Nihilism’, page 162.

§ An Innocent Self-Initiation

What this act of solitary mental contrivance ultimately resulted in was an unwitting self-initiation into a state that insulated a perceptive and logical internal system from the communal delusions which held this fragile system. For frail and disconnected from reality it is, and this is precisely the source of fear in which this society and civilization lives. It knows it is at odds with nature, but it is too selfish and lazy to change. In its narcissism and mediocrity it damns what is truly excellent and attuned with reality with words pulled out of a ready-made cache of buzzwords. Rather than face up to the facts, hallmark epithets drilled into the minds of sheep through brainwashing education will make sure no manner of reason will defeat their emotionally-sealed myths and beliefs.pine-690555_960_720

It was a self-initiation in the sense that it consciously set my mind on a different path, even though this was to be confused and then buried for a while. My own weakness and stalled inner death played tricks and delayed advancement. In the end, I owe a debt of gratitude and respect to those who gave me the gift of their mental nursing, those who distinguished a seed and deemed it worthy enough to prevent me from hitting rock bottom. I myself do not cower from it, and it may be that in the future I choose to forcefully enter the abyss against my loved ones’ wishes and better judgement. But when that day comes, it will be in conscious steps and not pure nihilistic free fall.

Nihilism is a curious concept which, much like the trials of an initiate, may serve the double function of separating the worthy from the lesser as well as exercising a transforming effect in the individual. He who is both willing and awake enough to go through a spiritual self-immolation may, like the Phoenix, return to the egg and then rise victorious upon a wider arc.

“To create new values that, even the lion cannot yet accomplish : but to create itself freedom for new creating that can the might of the lion do.
To create itself freedom, and give a holy Nay even unto duty: for that, my brethren, there is need of the lion.
To assume the ride to new values that is the most formidable assumption for a load-bearing and reverent spirit. Verily, unto such a spirit it is preying, and the work of a beast of prey.”

—Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spake Zarathustra, ‘The Three Metamorphoses’

§ A Path (Re)Discovered

I do not believe in accidents not anymore, at least not in the conventional sense. Occurrences lack of purpose or meaning in the human sense, perhaps, but they are not devoid of an ulterior motive. Synchronicity —discovered through awareness in real life, not merely theorized— has allowed for a new way of seeing life that allows one to move like water, at least mentally and spiritually. An active will, then, allows one to move like fire —a much more rare and volatile characteristic found in the spirits of a very few only.

Like the child in Brett Stevens’ Nihilism, I too grew through abrasive nihilism, although my own experience was much more furious and long-winded, having developed an intense and passionate Christian faith in my early years as well. My childhood was defined by both that promise and the natural and secretive Christian initiation I was led into; the reconciliation of both resulted in a concept which functioned as a knight’s armor against modernity. It would rust and fall into disuse throughout my teenage years, and it would be cast off as utterly outdated in my young adulthood.

perseus-296915_960_720Nihilism had then finally taken me to its utmost confines, leaving me spiritually naked and alone, no matter what the optimistic reassurances of others may be —such is the nature of extreme and empirical realism. How does this differ, then, from empiricism and realism? It differs in the psychological extent and emphasis which leads not to a mediocre accepting of reality, but rather to an extreme unveiling which ultimately leaves two options: suicide or heroism.

Heroism here is not to be understood in the mundane way as sacrifice for the (often physical) welfare of others, but in victorious and willful transformations. The hero does not seek to either control the universe nor leave himself at its mercy, but to be in an ever-changing state of knowing that implies a changing through its motions as the cosmos within and without are eternally explored. Control is achieved, but not in a greedy manner nor in wanting to bend nature. It is rather the gradual acquiring of a deeper and vaster consciousness which, through understanding the occult workings is better equipped to adapt and act accordingly to reach its own goals within that wondrous transcendent reality.

“But tell me, my brethren, what the child can do, which even the lion could not do? Why hath the preying lion still to be come a child?
Innocence is the child, and forgetfulness, a new beginning, a game, a self-rolling wheel, a first movement, a holy Yea.
Aye, for the game of creating, my brethren, there is needed the holy Yea unto life: its own will, willeth now the spirit; his own world winneth the world’s outcast.”

—Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spake Zarathustra, ‘The Three Metamorphoses’

§ Towards the Unknown, Into Darkness

The Path will surely not be easy. It will involve much learning and much suffering. Or more precisely, learning through suffering. This is not to say that suffering itself will be sought, but the path that maximizes the balanced (thus staying within the path) obtainment of knowledge incurs in more suffering. Why is knowledge and learning to be paid for in suffering? Is this masochism? No, and no. Anything of worth requires payment in time, attention and effort. In short, you pay for these things with your life.light-1345753_960_720

The mental aspect is the first of the tripartite spear of development to pierce self and kosmos with. Out of the three, it will come easiest since it comes more naturally to those of us used to dive into books. However, since time is of the essence, it will be of far more importance to discriminate and know what lies on our own path. Furthermore, here lies the piercing side of evaluation that many a modern occultist shuns, usually as an excuse to indulge in their own feelings and narcissism, which they confuse with intuition or empathy.

The physical aspect will surely be one of the most difficult aspects of this journey, for it requires gradually pushing boundaries till reasonable limits are reached. While I am used to physical training, the life I have led until now has always steered me away from full engagement, full commitment, to the physical aspect of my being. This has been gradually changing in the last few years, within reasonable boundaries and cycles. However, in looking forward to the upcoming change and new life, my conscious grew with a vitality and purpose for training that I had never before experienced. Some of us need a transcendent and spiritual dimension to everything we do, apparently. Still, running 32 kilometers in 2 and a half hours will require more than a little willpower and elan.

lightning-342341_960_720The spiritual aspect I associate directly with the power of intuition and the receptive agencies — and thus with the feminine and naturally noble side. The two others are but ways to solidify this last aspect that engulfs our whole being and moves between them. To know the darkest and yet the most luminous to then be able to move beyond both and into an attunement with and apprehension of nature at every level is a goal that immediately resounded with me. The internet being what it is, I had already bumped into the necessary information several years ago, but I was not ready for it at all. To immediately recognize the way when you see it is a characteristic of esoteric paths; to find the teacher when you are ready for the lesson. Sometimes that teacher is yourself, sometimes it is life itself. Learn from life, and especially from death; rejoice in death for only in death does life acquire meaning.

“And then-but I beheld not, nor can tell,

What further fate befell:

But this is sure, that Calchas’ boding strain

Can ne’er be void or vain.

This wage from justice’ hand do sufferers earn,

The future to discern:

And yet-farewell,

O secret of To-morrow!

Fore-knowledge is fore-sorrow.

Clear with the clear beams of the morrow’s sun,

The future presseth on.

Now, let the house’s tale, how dark soe’er,

Find yet an issue fair!

– So prays the loyal, solitary band

That guards the Apian land”

—Aeschylus, Agamemnon, ‘Antistrophe 6’. Translated by E.D.A. Morshead

1 “Thou art the death of me. I am slain in my love for Thee, O devouring serpent, O immortal python, O crushing Wisdom.”

2 “Strike! O, take me now, in an instant. Strike! with the passionate strength of thy love to overwhelm this silly thought I have of Thee, this struggling artifice. Flood the channels of my nerves with the lightning current of Thyself.”

Concentrated Thoughts, A First Rant


Some seemingly random thoughts to ponder on and perhaps even study.